Loneliness

I’m all alone in my room. My roomate was departing home. My books and notes were stored. Sounds left only cycling of fan in this room.

Huh. 

Till when human keep sighing and complaining? Too many man skirting us, people grumbling about noises and messy place. No one arround, people depressing loneliness. 

Forever we are human. Keep complaining. Frequently ask forgiveness from Lord due to too much complaining, Zahidah.

Well, we better learn to be alone. As tomorrow, or may be today, our hearts will stop beating, pulses have no stimulus to throb. And we are then lifted by others going to grave. There, no one else to company us. 

I wonder, how long do i still have before my end? Do i have enough time to erase all my sins and collect as much as amal? Do i?

Setiap jiwa ada tarikhnya

Semua orang takut mati. Yang ditakuti itu juga, semua orang akan lalui. Tinggal menunggu hari.

Hari tu solat jenazah untuk seorang siswi USM yang meninggal kemalanagn motosikal.

Mati bukan bersyaratkan tua. Bukan juga bersyaratkan sakit.  Mati, syaratnya hidup. Jadi, semua dah cukup syarat. 

Setiap hari akan ada orang mati. Apa yang buatkan kita yakin sangat bahawa esok atau lusa bukan giliran kita? Hingga ingat kan mati pun tidak?

Hassan Al Basri pernah berkata :

“...pada hakikatnya engkau hanyalah hari-hari, maka jika satu hari berlalu, sama ertinya engkau kehilangan sebahagian dari dirimu. “

this is, sort of self reminder.